need to rest

I just need one quiet moment!!!!!!...... I need rest and I need sleep. Baby, can I hibernate somewhere? I have bundle of unfinished work which I have no mood to work on and I am really slow on weekend. I was out busy for yesterday half day until 2pm. Out again from 7pm till night and got myself a working bag. The bag can't fit in my laptop. So sad.. but I guess I will leaveit unzipped on the top. What left over now is un-touched work. I have just cleaned the floor of my room and made the bed. Now typing here with my face covered in Body Shop HONEY and oat 3-in-1 scrub mask. I need to work hard in the next few hours. I am now feeling a bit regret for yelling to my mom the other day. Her hearing is turning bad these years.

Tired

I feel so tired easily. Altough I had enough sleep, I still feel tiredness all over me. I am exhausted as early as noon time everyday. I am having weariness from mental exertion. My movement is little slow than usual and everything I do required comparatively time for completion. Is it due to the weather or food? Talking about food, I really need to control my food intake. Smaller portion to feed my big appetite sounds a bit crazy but I will do it. I can eat a lot. It can be like 2 bowls of rice every meal at home. Only at home, my mom's cooked food can beat the famous chinese restaurant's dishes. I really mean it. Especially those pork rib and pork slices with salted fish... Yummy... yeah, all pork. I like pork :P than chicken.

missing you

I have been missing him since the first day from three. Wished that he is here with me. We both found each other and it is a bliss.. It has been long since my last relationship. I started this because I feel that he is the right one. I feel I am the happiest girl in the world.

Apart, never again ...

You stare at me, I am shy
You ring me, I am fine
You look for me, I am glad
You talk to me, I smile
You comfort me, I am touched
You joke to me, I am happy
You miss me, I feel the same
You hold me, I am free
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What's in my bag

I have a backpack which I always bring out everyday. Out i mean is to work place. I try to minimize the number of things in it to lessen my burden. It contains the following:

1) Laptop -- This is the only thing that happen to must be with me. Without it, I can just stay at home.

2) Purse -- Without money, IC and license, practically, we cannot go out.

3) Mobile phone -- No one goes out without a mobile nowadays.

4) Umbrella -- This is the lady side of me, "sediakan payung sebelum hujan"!!

5) Papers -- Which I think some can be thrown away. Plan to read some of them, but seems like I do not need them already.

6) Keys -- Of course I need them

Alright, my bag contains only basic needs. I guess the most womanized item in my bag should be the umbrella. OMG, maybe I am too engineered now.

2007 New year resolutions

ok.. i list down what is my resolution for new year 2007.

1) Get at least 10% increment this year in my pay -- because I have worked hard enough whole last year for it

2) I don't get pimples so often. One during PMS time is acceptable

3) Not to dump my friends even after I am attached -- request from a friend

3) Able to get myself a new watch this year -- wanted to give my existing Elle to my sister, and the Giordano one can't run anymore.

4) To have enough sleep all year round. My face is like moon if I don't get enough sleeps.

5) Treat my friends nicely

6) My sisters all are healthy and the new baby will be the new member soon. Hope that she is fine too

7) Hope to get a good boy friend -- and please, my requirements aren't high

8) Not to do so much mistakes in my deliverables.

9) Love my family and care for the world

10) Racist keep being a racist -- so that the world will be balanced

Xmas home trip

Intro:
This is the third blog with "XMAS" spotted in the tittle.

23 Dec 2006
I am at home now. I opened my closet and found my old diary. "I love him a lot and I want to marry him". It sounds so far away from my life now. When I read through the papers, I had a mixture of sad, dissapointed and happy feelings. I felt the joy I had those times when I am being loved and cared. When I reached the page, where joted down when we quarelled or getting scold,ed I gripped my teeth firmly through that few minutes of reading. I just woke up from sleep as usual at casual hours at home. Maybe I was too tired walking in the mall. Jusco is Klang first shopping mall that has not so many Malays. It was a famous hangout place during my school time. There are a few places that I once hang out at. I don't go out so often, but these are the places I been to with my dear school friends -- forever friends

1) Bukit Raja Shopping Mall --> This is top in the list. SOmehow we call it Jusco than Bukit Raja bla bla bla..It has shops ranging from Vincci, padini, googles, FOS, Polo and so on. Since it is more identical to Shops in Sunway Pyramid (but is more inexpensive though), young people like (*grinning) loves hanging out there and not forgetting it has a cinema too.

2) Klang Parade --> Erm, it is hard to get here because it needs 2 round of bus to reach this place. We need to get to klang bus station and then change to another bus which goes to Meru. Normally we don't stick to this place but we came here because of those Klang people or friends from school in Klang, say nearer to High School.. our activity partner in Interact Club

3) The Store --> I don't come here so often, but due to my close friends who went to tuition classes near this place, I went there too to meet up with them or bought birthday gifts in Rivon.

24 December 2006
You know, today was not a relaxing day either. I woke up at 9.15am and realised that only left me and my youngest sister at home. Yvonne was still soundly sleeping and I crawled out from the queen size bed not to wake her up. When she found out I was awake, I informed her of the tasks assigned by mother the day before. Yeah, to the morning market. Erm, she was supposed to follow me there because I wanted to get her a pants.. Those with ribbon belt. Yes, she fond of the type of pants and I find it too expensive in shopping mall. Maybe it is better to get one round of trip in market to see if the pants is available there. So we got the few plastic bags of groceries and cold storage foods for my mom and the ever-tasty chee-cheong-fun. Hehe.. Klang chee-cheong-fun differs from Johor or Penang ones.

1) Klang - We have variety of yong tau fu choices to pick from but I chose my usual items, the "fun", with "taukey" and the sweet sauce plus a little bit of chilly.

2) Johor - this is the Hong Kong style chee-cheong-fun where normally there are 2 ingredients, either the "char siu" or prawn. The ingredients are wrapped by the freshly steamed "fun".

3) Penang - This one a bit weird. Basically the chee-cheong-fun contains only the "fun" with sweet sauce plus the prawn paste.. =P

By the time we reached home, I got the reminder call from Kevin to meet up with him, James and Samuel for movie in Mid Valley. I was a bit lazy actually because I need to drive alone all the way to KL for just a over-exaggerating Curse of Golden Flower starring the ever famous Chow Yuen Fatt, Gong Li, Jay Chow and a few more whom I don't recognised. It took me approximately 50 minutes to find a parking. I don't understand why people like Mid Valley so much. It is damn difficult to get a parking and I finally found one in front of the slidding door. Lucky me, but (*wink*) it is not a formal lot-- illegal one. I don't care anymore, I don't want to circle the place anymore so I took the place which seems like a good spot.

I managed to get home at 6pm and brought Yvonne to get her new spectacles. haih.. it is so expensive because her power reached 900 and the fella adds Rm20 for special-order-of-the-lense-fee and another rm100 for 1.61 glass index lense. Hard to earn money nowadays. Man.. How am i going to survive?..

25 December 2005
The three days trip home fast to end soon. I drove mother to market again to buy some vegetables. Now I am writting here, the time shows 14:19. My ride coming at 4pm, and I can't finish writting my self-assesment yet. I am tired with my work.

Merry Xmas

Today I joined the carol practise for the third time. The songs that we are going to sing tomorrow are:
1) Santa Claus Is Coming To Town -- Very kiddy
2) Silent Night -- This song is kind of slow and boring but I personally love it
3) Hark! The Herald Angels Sing
4) Jingle Bells
5) Joy To the World
6) We Wish You A Merry Christmas -- Everybody should know this
7) Feliz Navidad -- Fun song

The girls are divided into two groups and I am standing in the second row the first from left. For some parts of the song, we will be doing "echo" but I am singing the normal part. Nobody knows I sing badly because hahaha.. I hardly sound :P Who cares, we just want to have fun.. *Wink Wink*. We need to wear either red, pink or white for the performance. I think I going to wear pink, I got no pretty red shirt.. Pink is the best candidate as for now. I think tomorrow I am not going to have a lot time to work as the xmas celebration starts after lunch and at 5.30pm, we are supposed to depart for The Ship in Ferringhi. I hate to spell Ferringhi like my buddy too because I typed 5 times to get this word correct everytime.. We are all going for a colleague's farewell dinner. Erm, it's kind of tough because I want to tie my belt to buy new year stuff. I think I gotta spend at least rm50 for this dinner.. Haih.. fail to save $$ again..

When I am listening to Fool Again by Westlife just now, my tears dropped because it flashed back my stupidity into my mind. Yes, I was stupid last time to treat him so nice but he disregard my kindness. He was harsh to me and always reject my request for help although in other people eyes, he is a kind and helpful guy. I am hating him a lot. Everytime I ignore his existance, he will try to start conversation with me.. But if he found out that I can treat him as a friend again, he will once more push me away.

I am so occupied with work. I think this work going to kill me. I have lesser and lesser time to play nowadays. I am going home this weekend. Merry Xmas !!!

Gua Tempurung and Kellie's castle

Kellie's castle

I am kind of lazy in blog-ging lately. I have been complaining to many people that I am broke. I gonna reduce any activities that cost a lot. The big problem here is whenever I said that, I still go out and spend money. Haha.. At last after I got the bonus, I can pay my study loan now. I did not pay the loan last month. So, I straight away pay RM600 online. It is quiet painful also when the sum of money is being deducted from my bank account. I know sometimes it is hard to please people as I don't like to change my verse to suit some people. Just can't really stand the way they talk or treat people. Yesterday I had a full day trip to Gua Tempurung plus Kellie's Castle sight seeing. We went into the cave with many people, yes, I mean many, people from all types of life. We had the old, young, kids, youngster, father, mother, Indian, Chinese, Malay and Ang Mo.. The huge number made the trip lesser exciting due to the time spend waiting for each other. We started with the wet path first, that is by going through kind of long way in water, walk like a duckie and float our body to pass some low part. Just can't straighten my body because I know it will knock my head. The torch light is very important in there. We need a good torch light because the normal one really can't see far in dark. By the way, those torch light in market is a good product, I soaked it in water and dropped a few times on the hard rock, but it still shine brightly. We went to various paths and the guide showed us a those rocks, staglatite and staglamite that resembles some post or object. We see the Guan Yin statue, laughing buddha, dinasour, elephant and many more. Wonder who is so free to sit there and find the interesting carvings. There is a part where we need to slide to a slope and that is where I made my pants dirty. The orange soil stick to my pants and shirt, hard to take off, I am still soaking them right now in Dynamo solution. After the sliding part, we will see a small hole. It is small, just enough to fit a person. We go down into it one by one. Afterwards, we walked inside the cave using the stairs. It is amazingly beautiful in there. I feel so funny because I imagined it to look like a huge stadium with dim lighting. Muahaha... We snapped some pictures in the cave but yet to receive. After the cave, we bathed and feed ourselves with some foods at the stall outside the cave. We went to Kellie's castle after spending some 1 hour plus there. Kellie's castle is a beautiful place and is identical to the inspiration of Taj Mahal in India. The casle is build by Kellie for his wife Agnes, a British heiress. But he never got the chance to stay in his castle because he died before the construction completed. The place is really beautiful, it is built on the hill will a small river surrounding it. I felt physically tired after the trip and wanted a good sleep. That's why I write this the next morning :D

Xmas wishes

I am happy because I received a lot messages on my Xmas tree.

http://www.mtvasia.com/Funstuff/Xmas/xmas.php?treename=strawberries

I know I will lost the messagse on day when the sponsor remove the page.

I can eat vege too

Today I took vegetable for my dinner. I had brought back a container of salad from last night party home. Just now, I squeezed more salad sauce on them and finished the whole box. I cannot believe I took vegetable for a meal. Today is Friday but I am too far away from hardworking to do work. Honestly today I did not work. I just replied a few emails and achive the disk. I know I need to complete the testcase for my manager. He has been too nice to me and the subordinates. I guess I need to help him in his assessment for this year. I have bought a nail polish from The Faces today and I plan to put on it after my bath. Is is violet. Maybe today I shall go for a bit of in-house beauty session.

bus broke down

I thought of reaching penang before morning, that is why I bought the 5pm bus ticket. The bus end up arrived at Klang station 30 minutes late. I was in good mood and those bad encounter did not bother me much. After coming out from the express bus stop in Slim River, the bus gave some funny noise when going up the hill. The worse came when smoke started to come into our comfortable space. Someone approached the driver and the bus stopped. We were in the middle of highway far from reaching Ipoh yet. I only remembered the nearby signboard says Songkhai... My brother in law rang me after I sent a simple sms to inform my family that I was stuck there because the bus broke down. This is my first time encountered this kind of incident. My brother in law then passed the phone to my worried mom.. Mama started to enquiry on the situation and my location. The first thing she asked is how many people are there. I told her we have the whole bus of passengers stading by the road side. She asked if I am scared.. I laughed and replied her "Of course no laaa". After half an hour, mama called again and this time, some people already took the passed by-bus to Ipoh. A lot of empty spaces bus were heading towards Ipoh. Those people are just too lucky then. The left over were us who are going to Butterworth and Penang. Some buses passed by and stopped but to no avail, none of them are going to Penang. After 2 hours waiting, at last a bus to Alor Setar picked up the bUtterworth people and left us 6 people to Penang there.. I was holding the ever-heavy backpack and it was really torturing. But I was too thirsty because I did not bring any water supply onto the bus. I have asked my friend to fetch me from bus station earlier and he was too kind to waited for me until 1.30am. Yes, at last there was a bus picked 6 of us up. Mama called the last time at 11pm when she told me that she is going to sleep and make sure that I am safe. The bus took a lot of detour and I was on the bridge at 1.24am. At this moment, I knew I should inform him that I am arriving. Haha.. The best part of the day was he fetched me with a cold Pepsi in hand.

The theory of flying a kite

I often heard that love is like playing a kite. Let me ilustrate the scenario. The tiny nylon string represent the freedom given to the partner. The partner very obviously is the kite while the player is ownself. You see, when you started the game, first thing you will do is to let go the kite. We tend to let the kite flies freely and the kite goes far and far away. At one point when you know the wind is so strong and if the kite continues flying, it might be pulled by the air pressure and breaks. So, the player will pull back the string a bit by a bit to the comfortable length again. Beware when letting it goes, because it might break and won't fall into the place where you stand again. Your kite must be very stunning because if it doesn't you won't like it in the first place and you won't be flying it as well. When holding the string, remember to be gentle. You don't want the roller to cut off the string accidently too. This paragrapgh is written for those who are in love and hope that you can play your kite well and lovingly :P

Been conned

I feel so sick man.. After all it was just a dream. I guess things should clear up soon. I don't want to be cheated! Why can some one tell me what is happening?

dragon boat

I was positioned 1 metre higher than the rest on the boat. The boat is so called dragon boat but I don't see any dragon carved or stationed on the front. My post was the drummer. I was supposed to beat the drum accordingly and shout to motivate the team members. My team members look to be in good shape but unfortunately we did not win. I am in grey team and my gang is actually consist of those geniuses.. I just thought they and I are just not to be born to play. We are to work.. Haha.. It was quite a hot day but it did rain during the few minutes we were on the water. Luckily I got the SPF130 sun lotion left over from Phuket trip. The application was not hard. It is a good product though it is a bit too expensive.. A small bottle of size of mosturizer for Rm28. I did not get dark from fierce sun in Phuket and today's team building.

Sleepy day..

I am tired and sleepy. I haven't got chance to write this blog since last weekend. My life is in deprivation. I am lacking of some necessities in life. Maybe the food isn't enough and the room isn't big enough to store me. Sometimes, something came into our life, but it passed by. We shall not morne for the loss but to cheer up because the suffers had walked away. I estimate the longest time I morned for something is 3 years. I guess it was my notably stupid way of judging the importancy of a the matter that time. I am now in a meeting. I don't like meeting and I don't want to be in it. I know sometimes I show my uncomfortable face too obviously. Should hide it sometimes. But I prefer someone to be honest to me than wearing a mask. I look so ugly nowadays. Maybe it is caused by all the late night sleeps. I miss my mom now, damn it.. Can't get a phone and call her. I think she wants me to go home ocassionally. Although her reason is the newspapers and cardboard are bundling up too fast in our home, and she wants me to drive the stuff to the recycling centre, I knew deep in her heart, she wants me to be back home. Yeah.. I want to go home

is it true?

Some people always promise something but they never take action to realize what they have promised for. I am the one who always think that these people are serious in what they have promised. I believe in whatever reasons they give me but end up I am so much disspointed. The person is able to soothe my anger everytime with him simple phone call. I hate myself so much for letting myself to surrender so people can win over me. I am so sleepy now.. I spent a lot this week.. For the Phuket trip, repaired my car.. and a new handphone. My car had this funny rotating sound when it was moving. I spent 3 hours waiting for the workshop fella to repair my car.. He did not ask me to sit down or give me drinks during my stay there. The hot weather caused headache to me. I was so in great pain after the fix but still I proceed to my next destination. I got myself a brand new handphone. This is the first handphone I had paid for so far. I am quiet delightful for doing this, kind of a satisfaction after working non -stop sacrifiying my happy hours. It is not the latest model phone in the market, but is considered a good phone still..

post Phuket fever

The trip was too short but I enjoyed to the fullest all three days. This was my first time fly. With Air Asia slogan, Now everybody can fly!... I was granted my wish four times which we took off from Penang to KL, KL to Phuket, Phuket back to KL and KL to Penang again. It was nice for the first time, yeah first time is always the best! I was not in the good position when the journey started because I slept at 4am on the day and woke up at 6.30am to get ready to go to the airport. We were struggling to get the cheapest deal for Phi Phi Island on our second day. Everybody is trying to pull customers with their naughty and cunning trick. I guess the 1200Baht package is quiet fruitful because we were served with the nice dishes in the afternoon. I like the tomyam the most. I vommited in the speedboat due to the turbulance on board. It might caused by snorkeling. The fishes aren't as big as what I see in television. I was a so brave to swim all alone enjoying the sea view. I treat myself a bikini gift. It cost me rm40 only. You know, came to Phuket, the most luxurious food i think is rice. Everywhere is served fragrant rice. During short walk in Bangla road, I was holding a can of Thai beer named Chang Beer. There is a local guy who looked down at his own local product when he shouted "Chang Beer" in disgust when he saw me holding the can. The beaches are supposingly cleaner and clearer than Ferringhi. The whole street at night sells the same product we can buy in ferringhi.

Pathetic

I feel sad because I did something bad today. I was dissapointed and I told him that. It was quiet pathetic. I have always tell myself to control my emotion. I have failed today ... I don't want to fall into the deep hole again. I know when I fall, I can't get up so easily. Therefore, I will have to do every small thing in detail.

Here By Me

Came across a good song.. Did not mean anything by the lyrics I pasted here..

Here By Me - 3 Doors Down

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever beIt could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you'
Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever beIt could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you’re not here
I’m sorry I can’t always find the words to say

Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your lovex2
And everything I have in this world
And all that i'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me