I am feeling better already. It's true what they say about clearing the air. If you let it out, and suddenly, you're not nearly as stressed. Isn't that a relief?~
This that has been done cannot be undone. we don't find fault with the people we love.. been packing all my stuff for heading back home this cny. three boxes of books.. and a bag.. wanna take another colour box if can.. to no avail, can't take it out.. no place to put my fan!!

awful day !

laid there for two and half hour for facial mask and eye treatment.. pressed blackheads... whoa.. painful! ~~ =( had a real shockful morning.. saw something that woke my sleepy mind.. faced each other.. and had an awful experience of being a chairperson.. all those awful moments..

apart from that, rewarded myself a blouse~ say a new year clothes. thinking of writting down any unusual thoughts that pop into my mind... by nature i tend to be an insightful person, good at sizing up people, even total strangers. however, today i am more so than usual. Intense conversations, perhaps about metaphysical matters, bring myself closer someone. It is a source of warmth and inspiration.

DOG

In the West, the Dog is man's best friend, but in Chinese Astrology this Sign is a little more unpredictable than that. Dogs are loyal, faithful and honest and always stick to their firm codes of ethics. However, this Sign has trouble trusting others. It's generally quite trustworthy itself -- except for the occasional "little white lies" the Dog tells in order to make things go more smoothly. The Dog makes a wonderful, discreet and loyal friend (despite any white lies) and is an excellent listener. This Sign tends to root for the underdog and its keen sense of right and wrong makes it duty-bound to the core. The Dog's mantra seems to be, Live right, look out for the little people and fight injustice whenever possible.


I am most likely the one having the characteristic in the desciption above. Loyal, faithful and honest~ too honest by saying everything out makes me falls into trouble everytime. maybe something is meant to be secret.. or something is best to be left unsaid... unknown... another hot day that sizzled. even can feel the heat by sitting on that chair in eleven-three.. directed myself to projet later on and had a cup of ice lemontea.. after the cold shower, i am refreshed again. gotta listen to new next time.. get ice from projet and bath in cold iced water... whoa... :P

hug

hug is a boomerang.. you get back once you give.. hug gives warm and wanted feelings. hug someone you love is a gift. hmm.. so how? go hug your love one..

the lonely soul is comming back. i hate reading in my room. its so quite.. miss those moments.. now i am wearing read pyjamas with printed bear.. :) wanna sleep..

CNY mood??

ean already in chinese new year mood although there are still test, assignment, report, presentation on the way.. hmm... busy.. bu zhuang yi dian dou bu neng ah!

worries still trouble me.. can't predict what will happen or had happened.. maybe should just eat the water melon and cool down.. yeah.. bought a watermelon yesterday, and already eaten half.. kakaka... say water melon addict, chocolate addict, music addict, book addict(worm?)..

A Friend's love says,
"If you ever need anything, I'll be there"
True love says,
"You'll never need anything, I'll be there"

chocolate

choc·o·late Pronunciation Key (chôk-lt, chôklt, chk-)n.
Fermented, roasted, shelled, and ground cacao seeds, often combined with a sweetener or flavoring agent.
A beverage made by mixing water or milk with chocolate.
A small, chocolate-covered candy with a hard or soft center.
A grayish to deep reddish brown to deep grayish brown.

I feel chocolatie today.. Melt under the hot temperature and highly energetic in the house. Chocolate is made from bitter cocoa seed that been processed to the physical form you can see in supermarket. The bitter path I am walking through now should end very soon.. Will become the sweet and irresistable chocolate.. with candy inside!

gloomy, hot, determined

~gloomy
my intuition senses some kind of uneasy feeling today.. -gloomy- too pessimistic.. hope everything is fine and goes well for everyone around me..

~hot
the weather damn hot today. marked 31 celsius in the afternoon and now decrease to 27 celsius the last time i checked. the heat could have burn up the mango tree in front my house if it doesn't cool down.. can make people hot under the collar too..

~determined
tried so hard to keep my eye on the optic notes.. managed to capture say, two pages?

probably i should get a cucumber and slice it. put on my eyes.. soothe the dark circle around my eyes

strategic planning?

tired.. tired.. tired.. spent the whole afternoon and night busying with engineering management assignment.. satisfying result afterall... did what we supposed to do except the front page..

how to describe my feelings today ya... can i say "flowerish"? pure and white like lily, spiky like rose, hot like sunflower and proud like hibiscus..

hunny-B.. this is how i call my pooh bear.. my honey.. the furry orange thingy which i hug to sleep everynight.. under the moonlight .. and to that gal that reading this now... go sleep ya.. sweet dream..

Forgotten past..

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches..
~quote for today..

The familiar smell and softness of my blanket provides me comfortable and warm feeling. The weather is going to be hot today. Malaysia which is located at the equotorial always experiences hot, hot, and hot weather. Heavy thunderstorms occur once in a while and frequently at the end of year.. end of 2005.. rainy season of the year.. its rainy inside me also. The hopes and beliefs which I hold to is perished by a little act of selfisheness and hartred. I treasure every moment spent and remember every detail of the conversations and actions. I dream of a perfect and loving future. I want to share with people that I love and care..

tiring day..

Anyone can believe I woke up at 7.20am this morning for tennis? Still sleepy at the hour.. then I was tring to hard to do something useful and not to waste any more time.. out of 10 I rate myself 2. Did nothing.. Went into campus to look for my "choi san ye" but can't find him again. Later the afternoon tried to take a nap after meeting my new group member in P05.. After getting invitation to go apple cafe for dinner, here I am.. writting this...

Mae wants to open a cafe like apple.. maybe she can try purple colour instead of green... just like lavender... purple still my favourite

27th

Is your birthday day 27 of the month?

Your Life
You are sensitive and vulnerable. Tears often run down your cheeks even when the matter is not that bad. This might be the result from being too pessimistic. You might seem cold on the shell, but your inner self is a kindloving person.

Your Love
You will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed your date maybe. You are demanding in love and sometimes to an unacceptable extend.

new year.. new moments in life

On the way coming back from campus, i drove slowly and a bunch of leaves fell.. very beautiful and peaceful.. It is like a mixture of autumn and summer season.. =)

I realised there's a lot of things in my life that I could not reach. I wanted to be a doctor when I was in standard 3, a woman entreprenure when I was in standard 6, a stewardess when I was in secondary.. but I turned up studying in this place.. haha! What can I say, 5 years are going to end. I have another 3 months to complete everything and start working.. but working in that organization is not my choice after all.. a design engineer..

The past few months had been very intriguing.. a simple word to define my inner thinking. I gave my heart wholly and thought of nothing else. But everything was not in my hand.. gripped too firm?

I have my new year resolution.. that is to be affable..