** hatred all within **

i am not sure if what i did is the right thing to do.. am i doing something to please myself rather than believing? young girls are enthusiastic on going after guys of their dream . is it that i am left over to the world behind ? the early 80ties baby? is that by touching and flirting can lure guys attention the most?
in another case, A is a damn conservative female "friend" of mine. she has this bad or negative attitude towards english educated girls. she laughs and plays like kid in front of people. she has a different response towards people that own little value to her. to people that favoured her, she is a playful girl who laugh a lot. but i never see her giving me a real smile. she fakes all her laughters around to make people feel she is a friendly girl. i found another victim to her extreme dictation. the victim confessed it happened to her since university times when she will not entertain her when victim approached her in study problems. she really don't even know how to survive in this congested world.