taugeh

after a few reading material, i realised that i've been thinking negatively for the past weeks. There is this law which they called it the law of seeds.. yeah.. to get the thing you want in your life, you need to try more than one attempt, never give up so easily.. the grow an apple tree, why does people plant a bunch of seeds instead only bury one.. not always the one you invest the most will be fruitful.. also no one can decide for the other person's life. i am still young probably .. still a long way to go.. saw in the mirror, i grew a lot since few years back.. when i first came into university, i was a real naive and innocent girl.. everything is so perfect because i have not mix with "bad" people before i left home.. everything were taken care by my parents.. then i was introduced some difficulties which i guess i'd overcome them right now. time past, but the gratefull thing is i grew up into not-so-bad-looking afterall.. i am getting pretty tough nowadays.. u know.. i am taugeh.. harder than tofu.. :P

never judge a book from its cover

never judge a book by its cover, never judge a girl by her appearance and never ever judge a guy by the first impression. i was once conned by the first look and that was the most gentleman guy i would think i've met. time goes by, the true colour shows.. now i had grown up and there is no more fairy tales i guess.. but if there is, who cares if it exists..hehehe.. come on, show me ;) i am just a plain girl who wish to see the sheepish grin on his face.. and the naughty side of him.. huh.. who is him.. now is the time to find out.. yeah.. now is the time.. let us see..

how good if..

how good if:
- pokemon is pink in colour?
- the sky is not so wide.. i need to know the limit..
- the bus that i boarded is not full.. and the direction lead to where i wanted to go?
- the first ride will last forever
- everyone has clue on what they gonna be in the next 3 days..
- babies are not so cute.. and kids aren't so playful.. make me can't resist of not thinking of them..
- my bed is made of flower buds.. and smell like ralph lauren fragrance..
- nobody make up in this world..
- i am someone's someone..

sgoh12

this one is written based on request from a damn mad guy in my workplace. He is a weirdo. He wears a two sided t-shirt that written I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND on one side and I HATE MY GIRLFRIEND on the other side. Also he posted on his instance messenger note that he dunno how to tell her that he does not love her anymore.. Haih.. this guy.. i salute him man..

not as we thought..

bundled with lotsa issues lately..

1. unable to explain what happened to my bosses. they keep on giving me more tasks but tell me not to overwork.. does not make sense.. how to not overwork? when i am overloaded..

2. gotta talk to dad ..

3. stuff does not go smooth as i think.. my expectation does not allign with my direction. i am only a slave to him, the master. i need to lead.. not him.

company dinner

supposingly i can see a lot pretty girls come dazzlingly to the hall of fame in EQ. Wonder if i should dress a lil bit more outstanding than them.. Worry I will look odd.. The gown is long.. but damn.. it does not touch the ground.. my sis is 2 inch shorter . therefore, this is the result from grabbing her gown instead of my cheongsam-silk-clothing .. Haha... hopefully, there is no clash in clothes.. If no, burst of laughters will be heard..

april fool

april fool marks a day for fooling people around.. but to the worst extend, i am not fool by anyone yet today. went to this place called clara for facial wash. when i was asked to rest on the bed, a girl named jacklyn came and took over the washing task.her voice sounds so sweet and tiny, but when the session ended, i found that she is actually a huge size lady.. still she is pretty yet attractive. the day is gloomy and i drove a lot. i am feeling good but i think i need to rest... going back to sleep.. got ice age movie later on at 8++

in the air

wow man.. the flowers bloom again.. i feel like i am the happiest person in the world. he drops by in life to make a sparkling touch to the fairy tale. working is even tiring now.. thinking of wanting to arrive home early.. waiting unpatiently like little kid to seeing him again.. working is indeed different from studying.. no more late nights due to project and assignments, but the late nights now is due to unfinish jobs.. and work load tension.. this week is a tiring week for me. looking at the mirrow, you will see the wide smile hanging from left to right ear .. showing how much happiness is there.. i wanted so much to burst from the small packed world.. and dad is having trouble with his biz.. me as his girl madly wanted to lend him hand.. but the most i can do is to transfer my hardship saving over to him.. just to lessen his burden.. miss mother, father and sisters at home.. wish they all are fine over there > 360 km apart ...

pteo

Some of the close moment spent was not genuine. The soft talk turned out to be a harsh one soon after myself given an object a harsh moment. It was natural response to the continuous objections. When food shared among friends, it is a friendly way of saying we are in one family. But when food is shared between two opposite genders, it gives the alarm which sounds like you and me are in the same family as well. Things getting pretty hard after few invitations which were turned down straight in the face. Cold greetings sometimes heat up the atmosphere. After dedicatedly being pushed away by the object, the fire in the hall is getting dimmer. Soon, it is anticipated to go away. However, there is something in the feeling still stick to the sweet moments. Everybody loves sweet moments, same here. It reminds me of the green nature forest in a fresh morning with bird's droppings on the leaves. Yeah, somehow strike the calm soul.

what a wonderful world

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what a wonderful world.. the brilliant touch from the god, making the world the best place to live in. what are we if we are born in place like the moon? everyone of us will look like Ben Grimm who turns be rock man in fantastic 4. haha.. i never think of watching that movie. not my style at all.. no comic movie.. but spiderman and batman are not bad either. hopefully today won't rain.. was excited to go to the event which so called 'bon oduri'. might catch my breath before i go.. =P wanted to carry on with my work.

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Quoted "No one can go back and make a brand new start"...
meaning: you can't say you are correct after every bubbly actions and harsh words and act like nothing happenned before.
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Quoted " Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending"
meaning: just a simple sorry will soothen one's heart and melt the -100 celsius ice.

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lunch in lil viet and dinner under the rain

another quiet and peaceful night. the night that i feel lonely once more. the day is not seems to be alright for any kind of gathering. the stuffy lunch in lil viet is the worst among the worst with those low rated taste food. as the night came along, dinner was served in the rain. was under the roof actually. but the rain was too heavy with strong wind enough to blow my bah kut teh bowl away to the opposite road, to say is makro. really disturbing our dinner. it was fun also. haha. james hold an umbrella while eating =P tomorrow and the day after are two of my few special days in a year. the days which i will make a mark on the red incredible calendar in my purse. to be remembered but no celebration. the were simply pop into my life and push out just like that. tv now showing matrix. the movie that doesn't make any sense to me the first time i watch. maybe my brain is no spinning fast enough to catch those meanings in their words.

new start

did stupid thing again. its good things ended this way. brand new start.. its what people say. relocation to this small island is quite something also. having to earn own income and new friends are just as fun as before. got to meet a lot different style of people. the life is simply fun compiled by a lil bit of irresistability. the eyes look like monkey eyes. =P

GRADUATED

Today is the last exam in my uni years.. It marked the ultimate goal of these 5 years spent. The scruntiny is observed and conclusion is drawn. There are still pitfalls in everything. I refused to divulge the cause of my "worriness". Maybe it will reach insanity one day. After tomorrow there will be no more broadband. The 24 hours access to the internet will be terminated.After handing up the theses with the electronic copies.. everything seems loosen up. My heart smile when the problems are released.. I love ... ;)

thank you

thank you for lending your ears when i need someone to listen
thank you for lending your shoulder when i need to cry
thank you for comforting me at my down times
thank you for being there when in time of need
thank you to be my friend

drama marathon

lil bit hectic. i read for exam on wednesday but could not resist not to watch those episodes.. that's me.. i am uncontrollable. i watched 17 episodes in2 days. the management subject is not easy. brain storming to dig ideas what to write as i am not "cheong hei" enough. how much i write it is just a page.

another day in paradise

i hang around too much this few days.. mentang-mentang present sudah... =P draft thesis is prepared. gonna show it to jafri tomorrow. hopefully,he will not reject.

The reality always passed by my fantasy... =) i gotta be strong.. yeah.. stronger. this not the end of life.. its just the beginning. a lesson of life!! maybe should pity that person for not being thankful and greatful for what was given.. thanks for the music.. it soothes my strangled mind.. which suffocates me all the times..

invisible

i am invisible. hope i have a cloak that can anytime used to cover myself. that time, no one can see me. i can do whatever i want because i am hidden under that piece of magic cloak. i can hit the person i don't like, i kiss the person i love, i can throw away dirty things without being seen and be a free man.

i am nearer to my sis now. she online everyday and chat to her everyday. saw the lake outside her window. serene.. got ducks sometimes. the best part is the temperature there is 13 degree. haha.. how refreshing if i can be there.. and neverthought the sweater dad gave to her really that tiny. dad is thin last time when he went to Italy. But never thought that sweater really fit to my sis.. tight.

today's theme is harworking!!

presentation...

hmm... never ending presentation.. but the monday presentation would be the last in my uni life.. same like the class yesterday.. the last class for this sem and also the last in my uni years.. hopefully monday will go smoothly

aim for higher achievements.. or achieve higher aims?.. ermm.. something to ponder on!was worried half dead on tuesday.. suddenly my pc can't enter windows.. and keep on restarting.. but i was not panic at all.. i begin to think how to save the situation. but at last it was just a battery. haha.. luckily. can use the money for tinted glass!

I am all alone..

I feel so tired.. I fall asleep in the afternoon because the weather is too hot. Did too little things tonight. Wasted the day again! My blanket and pooh bear dirty again. Have to wash them some time.. Both also my favourite thing in my room.